Saturday, May 28, 2011

there's no place like {home}

It's Memorial Day weekend!! While everyone is loading up and heading out, Matt and I are just getting back to town.  We headed down to Lawton on Thursday afternoon to watch and celebrate with a few of our high schoolers {from the good ol' youth pastor days} during their graduation! Such a fun and exciting time to be able to share with these students!  Unfortunately, Matt had to be back for work the next day, so we drove separate cars so I could stay down there and catch up with a few {very dear} friends.  It was such a great time and I feel so lucky to have so many incredible people that pour love and wisdom into my life!!!
We have yet to close on our house down there {still waiting on paperwork}, so last night I did a quick drive-by to make sure everything was okay.  And that's when it hit me: I miss our home. My heart actually started to hurt as I was driving away and remembering how nice it was having a place to go home to at night that was all your own! A place where you could let your hair down, take your makeup {and bra} off and let your creativity flourish without criticism {unless, by chance, I burned dinner!}. Almost like a safe haven from everything and everyone around you.  It didn't matter what had happened earlier that day because I knew that night I was going to be able to step in to a place where love and safety were in abundance. I miss having that. It probably didn't help that we had gotten a call earlier that day letting us know that the lot where we wanted to build our house here in Tulsa would be going back on the market due to the fact that our house in Lawton hadn't closed yet. {Here's the summed up version: we found a lot here in Tulsa that we put money down on to build a house.  We had the house plan picked out with the builder along with all the interior details...granite, cabinets, tile, door fixtures, etc.  Of course everything was contingent upon our house in Lawton selling - which was supposed to be the end of April - but due to the type of loan the buyer is getting, has been taking much longer. Phew...that was it!} That means, once our house closes, we're starting back at square one again when it comes to looking for houses. No house=no home.
Now, we aren't homeless by any means, but I'm just ready to have our own space again.  This past year has held so many changes, both expected and unexpected, that I'm just ready to get back to some type of normalcy again. I guess that's why I miss having a home so much. In August my home was Salt Lake. In September my home became Lawton. And in April we moved to Tulsa.  We're living out of boxes, sleeping in someone else's bed and I don't even have my favorite recipes to help comfort me {refer back to "being packed away in boxes" comment}.  I guess I'm just feeling a little blue and lonely.  When I was driving back to Tulsa last night, I programmed our address in to my GPS and hit "Go". Our Lawton address is still programmed in as "Home" {don't ask me how to change that because I'm technologically challenged!} and as I passed the street to our Lawton address, a picture of a little house popped up that was labeled "Home". I literally started crying and thought, "My GPS is as confused about where Home is as I am!"  It's hard feeling like where I am is "home" when no type of permanency is involved in our situation.  I guess a piece of me is just waiting for another major change to take place again!  I feel like a gypsy....but not in a good, stylish kind of way.  I feel like I'm wandering around from place to place with very little connections to anything or anyone.  I miss having a best friend. I miss having my sister and mom around. I miss having someone to spend hours with, talking about nothing over a cup of coffee.  I just miss a lot of things right now.
Matt and I both prayed when we started the house process that God would protect us.  So we know that even though we're disappointed with the way things have turned out, God has something better for us out there.  And through all of these changes, I know God is working and developing something inside of me that will be so great!  But for now I'm just....missing.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

{to die} faux

So I am one of those people that's always full of new ideas that, at the time, seem like such a great thing and I get all excited and passionate about it!!!.....and then, it never happens. Call it a problem with follow through, but I prefer to think of it as a clashing combination of A.D.D. and creative juices flowing way too freely throughout my body! {Did someone just say squirrel?!} Anyway, I thought that I'd share with you the newest "kick" that I'm on...sponsored by the oh-so-fabulous ka-ka-ka-Kara! {She just started a blog that I think is absolutely hilarious! Check it out here!}  Anyway, she's a stay-at-home momma {to one of the sweetest little boys who refers to me as "Marnie"} who's super creative and has an amazing voice! {Seriously, when she becomes famous and is on stage with her long blonde hair and bare feet singing her pretty little heart out, I'll be able to say, "I'm the one who gets pedicures with her!"}  Oh how I love a good pedicure! Now you know what I'm talking about when I say A. capital D.D.!  Back to the "kick"....Kara casually mentioned to me that she had been thinking about taking a class down in Dallas to learn how to faux paint and asked if I would maybe be interested in doing that with her.  Umm....would I ever?!  Talk about a fun job!!  How fun would it be to be able to remodel furniture and go into houses, changing the entire look and feel of a room?! I love the idea! I've been telling Matt for quite a while now  that I hope that one day, I'll be able to find a job where I'll make lots of money and be able to come and go as I please {sounds like a nice dream, right?! Good thing I like dreaming! :)}  Don't get me wrong, I just started a new job and I'm SOOOO thankful for it {and the people I work with are pretty, well really, great!}, but I would just ell-oh-vee-eee a job where I would get to be creative! So in honor of this new "kick", here are some of my favorite faux creations! :)

Sunday, May 15, 2011

all you'll ever need in a summer music {mixalota}

Me and my best friend used to always make mix cds for each other of some of our favorite songs.  It was always the best gift to get because you never knew what to expect!! Once a song started, we would be like "Oh my gosh! I love this song!", and then we would listen to it for a couple seconds and skip to the next song and be like, "Oh my gosh! I LOVE this song!" Pathetic? No. Dramatic? Maybe. I really prefer to think of it as happiness {on a circular disc}!  I would always make up cool names for them like "Man Hater Mixalota Numero Uno," "Shake Your Booty Mixalota," "Koo-koo Crazy Mixalota," "Just Chill Mixalota" and "Man Hater Mixalota Numero Dos"....not sure why they all ended in mixalota or why so many of them involved hating men....but oh well! {For the record, the man-hater ones were made before I met my oh-so-amazing husband! They were dedicated to all the ones before the hubs!! Haha} However, in homesickness honor of my dearest {best friend and left butt cheek} Whitney, I've made her a mixalota of my current favorite songs and thought I would share it with you {the lovely readers}! So from my ears to yours, here's your very first mixalota! Enjoy! :)

Rumour Has It - Adele

Friday, May 06, 2011

getting to know YOU!

Technology is an amazing thing. Seriously, sometimes when I look and see that someone from clear down in Australia is reading some of my {mostly random} thoughts, it reminds me of the song "It's a small world"....I can just see myself riding in the "It's a small world" ride in Disneyland....ahh the good ol' days! But then I realize, you're getting to know me, but I know nothing about you! So, this is a getting-to-know-you post! Even if I do know don't know each other! This is the plan....leave a comment with 5 fun facts about you {and if you have a blog, include that too so I can follow you!}. Sound good??? Great! I guess that means I'll start....

1.  I am probably the most indecisive person you'll ever meet. It drives my hubs up the wall!! Good thing he loves me! Haha
2.  I showed lambs in 4-H for ten years....and have a huge collection of belt buckles to show for it! {I already know, you're impressed!}
3.  Once upon a time, I was a rodeo queen....and so was my horse {at least that's what I told her!}
4.  I could eat cold cereal three times a day and still want more!
5.  If I was living out my childhood dream, I would be working at Sea World as a dolphin trainer! Oh how I used to love them! {Still do, but our relationship is best lived out on visitation rights rather than live-in roommate.}

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

unexpected {delight)

Ok, so I've already talked about how I've been in "nesting" mode lately {while we're in between houses}, well the other day I stumbled upon the CUTEST sign that I just had to get for our {future} master bedroom!  Matt and I never were able to find a picture for our wall in our old house, but I can already tell this one will be perfect in our new house {whenever or wherever that will be}! The sign is by Etsy shop designer LeeLaLa and I can already visualize it on the wall with a collage of pictures! Can't wait!!! :)

What's on your bedroom walls?!

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